I see your pattern. High talent, low conscientiousness, generally good communication skills but low ability to relate.
I think girls in this archetype find schooling even harder than boys. Modern schooling rewards conscientiousness but has no idea how to teach it other than reinforcing what is already there - if any. Also, girls have a higher need to align themselves with social consensus. In the median this environment favours girls, who tend more conscientious, but it makes a high competence low conscientiousness girl feel very alienated. This often puts her in the position of being "difficult" even though she's actually trying to figure out how to fit in.
I think a DEI-heavy environment can make it more difficult for women like you, as it propagates the school environment but removes the explicit busy-work and goals. In a healthy environment, at some point someone says "This is what is expected of you. Success will be rewarded, failure to achieve we'll go around again.". A clear reward-benefit structure and good supervision does wonders for people with talent but weak executive function. But an environment that is about "keeping the right people happy" - where you're both expected to figure out this unspoken rule and execute on it independently - is very difficult.
This was very relatable. I went to great lengths to avoid being a DEI admittance or higher. I went to and Undergrad and Law School that were well below my GPA/SAT/LSAT scores so I knew they admitted me because I was smart, not Hispanic. Still, they gave me generous diversity scholarships that felt very weird to accept. I took great pains to hide my race in job interviews, which was easier for me than you. Still, there is always a little lingering doubt.
I just don't think there is such a thing as a meritocracy for women, flat out. Perhaps for men, that can be the case. Congratulations on your academic accomplishments!
Like some of the commenters said: relatable story.
I'd just like to bring together a few things that stood out to me:
- difficulties in school due to high IQ
- struggling in social settings
- making a lot of money but it doesn't make you happy
The above three are key points in Aaron Clarey's book "The Curse of the High IQ". I've recommended it several of my friends who seeked advice for resolving the above 3 in their lives (and other things you brought up).
You mentioned you're not as well-read; well here is your chance 🙃 I hope you don't get thrown off by his use of crass language. But given you don't shy away from it either, I expect no hurdles.
Chiming in with a non-sequitur: Cappy is most well-known for his work on the economics of dating, which is decent, but his macroeconomic analysis is complete garbage. As a professional economist, Cappy is an awful economist. I highly recommend Michael Hudson for "big picture" econ.
"The social isolation and lack of mental stimulation in public school were psychologically tormenting. Imagine, every day from Pre-K to 12th grade, you’re the smartest girl in every room. Every. Single. Day. Sometimes even smarter than the adults. There is no one to talk to. There is no one to bounce ideas off of. There is no facilitation of intrigue. The worksheets are stupid and mind-numbing. You can do them in 5 minutes while everyone needs more time. You finish all tests early. You have few friends because you talk weirdly. You know the busy work is busy work, and you’re so sick of it that you just want to run away from the monotony. In fact, I did! I calculated exactly how many days I could miss in a school year without having a truancy problem and would proceed to skip that amount of days in high school."
I feel your pain. Same problem. I didn't skip much; I was raised military, so you must always do you duty, even when it's stultifying.
'Meritocracy' is anti-White. It's being proposed because the underlying system is completely oriented to being intrinsically anti-White and isn't going to change for a long time, maybe never.
The purpose of 'meritocracy' is to perpetuate the anti-White system that encourages Whites to be disloyal to other Whites under the guise of 'competition'.
They thing a young person should be looking for in an employment situation isn't 'meritocracy' but *loyalty*.
The longer you're in the workplace, the more you realize that loyalty is the only 'character' that really matters.
Hey what do people here think about DeepSeek? Personally my theory is that the American engineer who would have beaten the Chinese to it is working at Chipotle.
I see your pattern. High talent, low conscientiousness, generally good communication skills but low ability to relate.
I think girls in this archetype find schooling even harder than boys. Modern schooling rewards conscientiousness but has no idea how to teach it other than reinforcing what is already there - if any. Also, girls have a higher need to align themselves with social consensus. In the median this environment favours girls, who tend more conscientious, but it makes a high competence low conscientiousness girl feel very alienated. This often puts her in the position of being "difficult" even though she's actually trying to figure out how to fit in.
I think a DEI-heavy environment can make it more difficult for women like you, as it propagates the school environment but removes the explicit busy-work and goals. In a healthy environment, at some point someone says "This is what is expected of you. Success will be rewarded, failure to achieve we'll go around again.". A clear reward-benefit structure and good supervision does wonders for people with talent but weak executive function. But an environment that is about "keeping the right people happy" - where you're both expected to figure out this unspoken rule and execute on it independently - is very difficult.
This was very thoughtful! Thanks for sharing, it's been super helpful to read!
This was very relatable. I went to great lengths to avoid being a DEI admittance or higher. I went to and Undergrad and Law School that were well below my GPA/SAT/LSAT scores so I knew they admitted me because I was smart, not Hispanic. Still, they gave me generous diversity scholarships that felt very weird to accept. I took great pains to hide my race in job interviews, which was easier for me than you. Still, there is always a little lingering doubt.
I just don't think there is such a thing as a meritocracy for women, flat out. Perhaps for men, that can be the case. Congratulations on your academic accomplishments!
Like some of the commenters said: relatable story.
I'd just like to bring together a few things that stood out to me:
- difficulties in school due to high IQ
- struggling in social settings
- making a lot of money but it doesn't make you happy
The above three are key points in Aaron Clarey's book "The Curse of the High IQ". I've recommended it several of my friends who seeked advice for resolving the above 3 in their lives (and other things you brought up).
You mentioned you're not as well-read; well here is your chance 🙃 I hope you don't get thrown off by his use of crass language. But given you don't shy away from it either, I expect no hurdles.
Greetings from Poland 😊
I own that book! I love Cappy!
Chiming in with a non-sequitur: Cappy is most well-known for his work on the economics of dating, which is decent, but his macroeconomic analysis is complete garbage. As a professional economist, Cappy is an awful economist. I highly recommend Michael Hudson for "big picture" econ.
Very very relatable, down to the college(s) experience and calculating just how many days I could skip school before the truancy officer called.
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Relax, Aly. If cowboys like you you're not, technically, dei.
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I know I didn't write this, but large parts of it feel eerily familiar, even though I'm not female. Thank you for sharing your experience.
“I am remarkably low in conscientiousness”. Isn’t that just ADHD?
"The social isolation and lack of mental stimulation in public school were psychologically tormenting. Imagine, every day from Pre-K to 12th grade, you’re the smartest girl in every room. Every. Single. Day. Sometimes even smarter than the adults. There is no one to talk to. There is no one to bounce ideas off of. There is no facilitation of intrigue. The worksheets are stupid and mind-numbing. You can do them in 5 minutes while everyone needs more time. You finish all tests early. You have few friends because you talk weirdly. You know the busy work is busy work, and you’re so sick of it that you just want to run away from the monotony. In fact, I did! I calculated exactly how many days I could miss in a school year without having a truancy problem and would proceed to skip that amount of days in high school."
I feel your pain. Same problem. I didn't skip much; I was raised military, so you must always do you duty, even when it's stultifying.
'Meritocracy' is anti-White. It's being proposed because the underlying system is completely oriented to being intrinsically anti-White and isn't going to change for a long time, maybe never.
The purpose of 'meritocracy' is to perpetuate the anti-White system that encourages Whites to be disloyal to other Whites under the guise of 'competition'.
They thing a young person should be looking for in an employment situation isn't 'meritocracy' but *loyalty*.
The longer you're in the workplace, the more you realize that loyalty is the only 'character' that really matters.
Hey what do people here think about DeepSeek? Personally my theory is that the American engineer who would have beaten the Chinese to it is working at Chipotle.