Growing Up Anti-White

From fearing white Americans to enjoying them.

Most of the time, I hear white Americans discussing anti-whitism, I think it’s cute, but I think they are far off the target in their contemplations. Their contemplations are not close to the lived experiences of black and brown Americans being brainwashed into thinking whites are the enemy. They give black and brown¹ Americans far too much credit for why they think the way they do about white Americans. If you listen to white Americans on anti-whitism you will hear high-brow intellectual theories thrown around like neo-Marxism as the cause of anti-whitism. The answer is far more straightforward than that: ethnic minorities with a lower intelligence and/or an external locus of control blame White Americans for everything wrong with their lives, and the ethnic and white people around them corroborate this. They are living in a socially substantiated reality.

White Americans, for the most part, do not understand this because they do not believe similarly that other ethnic groups are the reasons for their failures. People speculate this is the case online, that there are many downtrodden white nationalists blaming blacks and browns for their struggles; however, your average white person is not terminally online on X (formerly Twitter) and still believes in a colorblind meritocracy.

What whites do not understand about blacks and browns is our lore. I will not at all suggest that mainstream media hasn’t had its hand in brainwashing the ethnic masses; it has, but with our televisions off, we have a paradigm of the world that we are the underdogs. I speak from memory, so forgive me for some inconsistencies when going back and forth between past and present. I no longer believe the things I am describing to you, but as a young girl, I did to fit into my culture or because I took what my parents and educators said as gospel.

I have the mixed bag of fortune and misfortune of being racially ambiguous. In the photo below, provided you know what Latinas look like, you will think I am Latina. I want to illustrate with the photos below that I change color. When I live closer to the equator, like in the state of Florida, or visit closer to the equator, I am darker. When I live in the Midwest or Northeast America, I am very pale in the winter and look Russian. I can go from looking like a Russian Doll to looking like a Native American within a few weeks or a few hours, depending on my activity and the seasons. In times past, when I ran outdoors for several hours on end, I looked Native American. I have seen what it is to be lighter and darker on and off through 30 years of living, and it has revealed to me the cancer that anti-whitism is.

I have primarily been treated worse for being lighter throughout my life. I actually can’t recall a single time I’ve been called a spic. I’ve been the butt of some off-color jokes from whites growing up and I’ve been asked if I was a teen mother when walking with young children in the past, but never anything solidly and significantly racist. I’ve never lost an opportunity for being Latina, but I have been socially ostracized for being “white.”

This led to many years of confusion as I was raised Puerto Rican for most of my life, with Black influence from a pseudo-parental figure. This is why I know the things I do about anti-whitism and why I am as white-supporting and Conservative as I am today. I wouldn’t say I am pro-white because I don’t fit the bill enough, but with 100% certainty, I am anti-anti-white. For further context, I have white children. They will tan well, but the world will see them as white and treat them as white, so it is my responsibility as their mother to be up-to-date on anti-whitism in the nation for their safety and well-being.

My upbringing is also why I know Normie Blacks and Browns hate white people. They say they don’t, but they do because of our lore.

What’s the Puerto Rican Lore?

From a Latin-Caribbean standpoint, the Latin islands of the Caribbean have significant variability in the phenotypic features of the population. Being Puerto Rican means having a blonde-haired, blue-eyed family member who is heavily Spaniard to a heavily African-blooded family member. There is considerable variability in skin tones, hair textures, and eye colors. Our three primary demographics of ancestors on the island are Spaniards, Africans (from the Slave Trade), and Native Americans (the Taínos were the Arawak of Brazil and went East to colonize the Caribbean). There used to be a cohesive island identity with much more color-blindness than today. As long as you were Puerto Rican, that’s all that mattered. But, sometime in the 2000s with the influence of American culture on Puerto Ricans, Puerto Ricans became even more Afro-centric than they used to be.

As Puerto Ricans, we know our three primary demographics of ancestors. However, we are only openly proud of two of those demographics. The culture supports us in identifying with our African and Taíno sides. There is an understanding that we are descended from Conquistadors and we speak their language (sort of), but it is not an open source of pride. This isn’t deeply contemplated among my people either. They do not conceive of identifying with their Spanish ancestors, even if they are pale-skinned and straight-haired. We are to identify with the conquered, period.

To add further context to our racial diaspora, this is often forgotten, but Puerto Ricans were akin to negroes in the 1970s and prior—which is partially why they’re anti-white today. The biggest income disparity in the United States in the 1970s at one point was between Puerto Ricans and Japanese Americans. When Puerto Ricans left the island, they came to the continental United States for a better economy and job opportunities. This landed many of us in New York, New Jersey, and Florida. In the Northeast, we closely assimilated with Black Americans, likely due to racial tensions at the time and socioeconomic status. This is why Hip Hop was created with Black Americans AND Puerto Ricans. Both demographics lived together in the birthplace of Hip Hop and Rap, although Black Americans deny this. I guess we wuz rappers, DJs, and breakdancers with no Puerto Rican neighbors…

Much of the distasteful things about my culture parallel black culture. My culture is fatherless, welfare-seeking, anti-marriage, liberal, pro-abortion, musically degenerate, afro-centric, and anti-white. This is precisely why I do not champion my culture over American culture. There is nothing to be proud of there. What transpires within those belief sets is a tragedy. Our young men are criminals, our girls are molested, and our next generation is murdered in the womb. The only reason why no one cares that Puerto Rican culture is toxic is that the Black American population outnumbers us. Our culture is just as problematic as theirs.

I do not think my Puerto Rican culture took the turn it did because of Black Americans, but rather because the automotive and manufacturing industry collapsed in the Northeast, and this led to a considerable increase in joblessness in Black and Puerto Rican men. At the same time, their female counterparts still wanted motherhood and had access to government assistance. Poor moral decisions were subsidized en masse, and women chose what they needed to address their perceived threats to survival. They felt the government was more reliable than their men, and I do not blame them for coming to that conclusion, given the dark machismo history of Puerto Rican culture. The Puerto Rican gene pool is small and has a high rate of albinism, which means there is a lot of “cousin love” going on, if you know what I mean.

There was also a general disdain for the Christian traditionalism Boomer Puerto Ricans pushed on these young women, and I understand the frustrations of the generation of women who came before me. The molestation of young girls that occurs in the community is infuriating. I can imagine being a young woman who grew up molested by older men in her family, yet being told by her parents that premarital sex is a sin and you need to marry as quickly as possible. How is one not worse than the other?

To hell with marriage if it’s fine for me to be molested by a male in my family, but it’s not fine for me to willingly lie with a boyfriend in a modern secular American culture.

My culture never reconciled the incest issue, and I suspect it still goes on to date. Puerto Rican women were not wrong to turn away from Christianity if the version they knew allowed them to be defiled by men they trusted, and those men never received consequences.

When I give my account, I want to be clear that I am not speaking just from my personal life and observations. I knew many Caribbean Latinos by being in the socioeconomic positions and neighborhoods I was in during my youth. The problems are all the same: Pentecostal parents to Gen X women who were molested, Gen X women turn to the state and don’t want to marry and become less religious, Gen X women are single moms whose children are at a disadvantage due to fatherlessness and statistically likely to be molested anyway. And somewhere along the way, those damn white people are the problem.

The molestation issue mirrors what Black Americans experience as well, which is further evidence that not all cultures are created equal. I imagine there is an element of perceiving whites as an enemy because they fare better when it could be that their women are less sexually traumatized, their men are more in control of their sexual urges, and that enables a better culture on the whole. This is one cultural difference of many, but you get the idea of the weight this grievous example in cultural differences between Puerto Ricans and Blacks carries in comparison to whites.

To summarize, that’s the lore:

• Christopher Columbus was bad.

• Pagan Slaves and Taínos are the good guys.

• Christian Spaniard ancestors are evil rapists.

• White Americans don’t want Puerto Ricans to succeed just like those damn Spaniards because they were given the island as a war consolation prize in 1898.

(White people trying to figure out how this is their fault.)

What’s the Black Lore?

This is more of an open-and-shut case. Africans were sold to Americans by their fellow Africans, but somewhere along the way, Black Americans forgot that fact. They were dehumanized and brutalized like many historical slave populations were. Puerto Ricans experienced similarly as Taínos were enslaved alongside Africans who were brought to the island for agricultural labor. The difference between the two is that the Spanish owned the Africans and Taínos on the island and in Spain, while Africans brought to America were owned by European-descended Americans.

And because of this, they have always been the underdog, and they will never overcome white Americans, although white Americans have provided academic and economic opportunity since ending slavery, as well as a functioning model of capitalism for ethnic minorities to function within.

However, I do not care because Black Americans are not notable for having a history of being enslaved. Many world populations were, and if we are comparing years of oppression, Puerto Ricans experienced 360 years of slavery compared to the 246 years Black Americans endured. Not to mention, many white Americans died in the name of Black freedom, and it was Christian influence that led to the disbanding of slavery alongside the Industrial Revolution.

What Anti-White Blacks and Browns Think of Whites

It took me a long time to figure out I had an anti-white upbringing, but I can tell you, when I was 19, I had a genuine fear of white Americans, which is why I think this ideology is so dangerous. I cried when Trump was elected. I did not vote because I figured Hillary Clinton had it rigged. When I saw he won, I was in tears because my immediate thought was, “All my white friends are secretly racist and not telling me.” I was suspicious of whites for many years, despite not seeing the signs that I was treated poorly for being “light-skinned,” as the ethnics would say. It wasn’t until many years later that it clicked for me.

As a child who was bright and received a somewhat decent education, spoke more properly, liked alternative music, had lighter skin, and had wavy hair, I was given the following feedback by my ethnic group routinely:

• “You talk white.”

• “You act white.”

• “You’re white.”

None of these words were compliments, and I was confused by this because my own family gave me this feedback, and I had extraordinary cognitive dissonance because I thought I was brown. I thought I was Latina. So, why were people calling me white, and why was it a bad thing? Why did an obese black girl push me to the ground in middle school? Why did Latinos seem so annoyed with my socializing with them when my white friends were nice? Why did the adults around me complain when I dated white males and not other demographics? And, of course, with my sharp pivot into Conservatism in my twenties, I got these criticisms more broadly, but it never stung quite the same way it did with my family.

Subtly through the years, I was told by the adults around me that they weren’t successful because they were being discriminated against for being Black or Latin at their jobs. I thought, “Oh, well, that must mean the same thing is happening to me at school because I am Latina.” Never mind that I had gotten into the college I applied to and had a full-ride scholarship.

This is why I say white Americans give Black and Brown Americans too much credit by blaming neomarxism for their ideology, it’s not like that. It’s this simple:

Ethnic minorities with a lower intelligence and/or an external locus of control blame White Americans for everything wrong with their lives, and the ethnic and white people around them corroborate this.

I will give you some examples of what this looks like with the examples referring to an ethnic person steeped in anti-whitism:

• Documented poor job performance is not because the person working is bad at their job but rather because the white person rating their work performance hates them. After all, they are racist.

• A white patient asks for a different nurse because they don’t like the care they are being given. The white patient is racist, and the nurse does not lack in work ethic or character.

• A person is treated poorly routinely by those around them. This is not because the person sucks and lacks character, but because they are Black or Brown.

• A Black or Brown child behaves poorly in school or assaults others, and their parents receive a phone call. The parents conclude it is not their poor or abusive parenting that is the issue but that the teachers and students are racist.

• A person loses a scholarship or does not qualify for one. This is because they are not white.

• A person manages their finances poorly and struggles to live comfortably. This is because they are not white; if they were white, they would have a better network and an easier time making money.

• A Republican is elected president. This has nothing to do with the struggles of your average American being expressed at the polls. This is because white people are racist and hate Black and Brown people and want to kick them while they’re down.

• A child is being bullied in school for being socially awkward or degenerate because they are abused at home. The bullies involved are picking on the child because they are not white, not because the fruits of their parents’ abuse are being shown.

In my youth, I befriended whites because I didn’t fit in much with my own, but even in my friendships with whites, I was suspicious of them. It wasn’t until I joined the military and had several Conservative white men answer my life questions and help me solve significant life challenges that I got to thinking… Wait a minute, these people are nice.

Then, many years later, after researching my ancestry and finding I was predominantly Spanish, it suddenly clicked for me why I was treated as “other” by my own.

This is why white Americans should care about anti-whitism and stamp it out as quickly as they can, because it can be used to justify any behavior a Black or Brown American commits against a white American. It’s dangerous.

Suppose you are told your entire life that your failures are because of white people. Should you be a person with a psychology trending toward anger and provocation, at some point, you’re going to be unnecessarily confrontational with a white person. You will want to make the person ruining your life pay in some capacity because that is what you believe they are doing to you. This narrative was corroborated by mainstream media for the past decade as well. I think this is why you see so much interracial violence against white Americans by Blacks and Latinos.

I thought all my problems were because of white Americans once, and it caused me deep pain, anger, and frustration, but they were never the problem. My lying, corrupted, and abusive culture was.

If you grow up in a culture of fatherlessness, criminality, molestation, physical assault, low morals, and no accountability, you will be an angry person in a lot of pain.

Imagine growing up in that context. Imagine being told the source of your pain isn’t within you, your family, or your culture. You have been informed the source of your life’s suffering is the white people around you.

Now imagine you believe that narrative.

How would you treat white Americans?

1. Black and Latin/Hispanic Americans